Okay, so there wasn't much interest in gaming so for now, that idea is on the back burner. While I did get 2 furs interested, one was perfect and the other may have had scheduling issues, it just isn't enough in my opinion to get a good group dynamic going. Maybe I'll try again after me and antimon move from our too-close-to-pine-hills-for-comfort town home to something a little closer to the Orlando furs.

In other news, it seems like the supervisor/lead shift bid has been pushed back to Dec. 1st. I guess thats good news, as we will be keeping our current leadership in place till after the end-of-year reviews are done, but in the end, I am still loosing my friends and most of the joy from my job. Its sad that I wont be able to see them since I work graveyard.

In furry news, I got my Michael Reference sheet from mehndix, and I am just waiting for latinvixen02 to open up the 2009 suit list so I can get my first fursuit! yay for me! You can see the Michael ref sheet in my LJ gallery here.

I think that wraps everything up, at least for this week anyways as I have furloween and my birthday comming up in the next 21 days or so. *Excited*

So me and antimon went to the Mixed Candy dance event last night. And while it was out in the middle of nowhere, and much too short, I had a blast! But I'm not sure how much fun antimon actually had *shrugs*

I filmed the suiters dancing for maybe 20-30 minutes and bobbed a bit to some of the better pieces of the mix being played (fucking love Botten Anna by Bass Hunter!) but didn't dance myself. Still too hard to get past the social lockouts I have going on in my head. I wanted to dance and have more fun than I was having, but I just couldn't get myself out there and make a spectacle of myself.

But I had loads of fun filming the cute suiters and watching them cavort with each other and it just reaffirmed my desire for a suit of my own, though I think I wont be going with the established characterization of Michael, jeans and leather trench coat look, I will start with a standard partial and see how things go from there.

Anyways had a lot of fun, and unlike previous furry outings, I didnt sweat my ass off, and thats a huge plus =^..^=

We did get lost on the way to Perkins for the after party feeding orgy, but based on how far in the middle of nowhere we were, I can easily see why we didn't find it. oh wellz :|

So I have made the final decision on suiting. Thought about it long and hard, factoring in all kinds of things from the "will I like it?" to the "Will I die of heat stroke?" to the "I cant afford it!!" and I truly think I sorted what I needed to sort, and have decided to go for it.

So hopefully Michael will be in the making soon. I just need to commission a reference drawing, not to mention some portraits, from Mehndix, suit measurements, and finally get all that to Latin vixen, so I can get onto her suit list ASAP in the hopes of getting the suit in 2008.

Wish me luck :)

... of the role I am going to end taking in the fandom anymore. I never aspired to be famous, or have loads of furs talking to me or hanging out at my place; I'm just too much of a solitary kat for that kind of thing.

But I want a fur suit, and I'm not really sure why...

I know it wont make me a fur, literally or figuratively. It wont change who I am, though it may provide the mask I need to be something other than my predictable, solitary self once in a while, but who knows? I don't know myself well enough to know how it will go. Will owning a suit see me attending more cons or even just being slightly more social than I am now? Awful lot of money to to waste if it doesn't get me out there with the rest of you furs.

I keep thinking about why I want a suit, and I can only come up with 2 answers: Either I think it will allow me to be someone else while I wear it, someone who can have fun for once in his life, or I think it'll bring my a bit of fame, or at least recognition in a part of the fandom. What it all comes down to is, do I want to be known and liked in the Fandom, or continue being myself, hidden away in a prison of my own making?

Though choice....