As I approach my 4 year anniversary working at Brighthouse, I have to sit back and wonder about it all. I both love and hate this job. I loathe going in every night to do the same shit over and over again, and yet once there, I generally have some fun because I work with a great group of people with whom I can talk with on just about any topic. Its a fucking conundrum...

So 4 years its been; 5 since I was fired at AT&T. That was another job I loathed every minute of the day, and yet had so much fun while actually there. had a lot of stuff happen while I was there. Met Heather, and though I still love and miss her terribly to this day, I feel that I would have been much better off for never have met her at all. Had a brief fling with Angela while I worked there. That wasn't a good idea at all. Not sure what I was thinking then, or why I did some of the outrageous things I did back then.

These days I am concentrating more on my own situation rather than trying to fill my life with someone else. I finally got my credit back on track after destroying it at age 18. I bought my first brand new car, and am currently shopping for a house. Got over 5k in my first 401k and at the start of my 5th year with BHN, I'll be in vested in the pension plan, so things are, for the most part, looking up for my financially.

Once I get past these baby steps, as I think of them, it'll be time to work on my personal issues. getting myself back into the dating game, looking for someone to spend the rest of my life with. Things are looking up, but in true form for me, I'm always looking out for the other shoe to drop...